Week by week I sat there listening to these amazing women share their stories on their journey of awareness. I know that they are not the only ones going through what they are sharing and so I asked different women to share something specific about their journey, their awareness and sometimes their struggle.

I have a tremendous amount of respect for Susie for I know, through her stories that she has grappled with a few things, one being her religion and the way that she was brought up versus her beliefs today. I asked her to share this initmate part of her journey and she so graciously agreed.

Her religion is not important for she can be Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Hindu or whatever. What is important is how she is dealing with it. I want other women on this path to know that they are not alone.

It has taken me a while to get some of the women to share for they tell me they are not good writers. I tell them the same thing each time: Write from you heart. And so Susie has and it is beautiful. Thank you.

Susie’s Journey
Hi Sandra!
Always good to hear from you. Interesting request which led to an interesting initial reaction from me. I’ve struggled with religion almost my whole life (since 12 yrs. old) partially because it was thrust upon me. When my father switched jobs, he no longer worked on Saturdays and started to go to shul. As kids we were forced to go too, and as we all know 12 year old girls are at an interesting stage in their development. It was a power struggle and I found myself with the short end of the stick. As I got older, I lied and snuck out of the house and became more and more detatched from my family. Guilt was a pervasive theme and I wish I could say that as an adult it is non- existent. Every once in a while something comes up and I realize, I’ve got some cleaning up to do.
As I’ve explored my spirituality the past few years, my relationship with G-d has strengthened and at the same time I feel a disconnect with Jewish observance. I sit with my discomfort and trust that the answers will come to me when there are decisions to be made. I feel stongly about being Jewish and am proud of my culture and heritage. I love and respect my family for their choices and life style and I know that while they may be disappointed in my choices, they love and accept me for who I am. We are not our religion. We are all one, and we are all pure LOVE.

That’s it in a nutshell. It’s from my heart.



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